The Loving Search for the Lost Servant

by His Divine Grace Shrila Bhakti Sundar Govinda Dev-Goswami Maharaj
December 22, 1999, Navidwip Dham

Here are so many devotees and all the devotees are very enthusiastic. Today and tomorrow it will be overflooded. I am expecting their presence here this time. So many devotees will come. They are very much enthusiastic to celebrate this festival they are making, my birthday festival. They will give so many gifts to me, but what shall I give to them? It is not a one sided festival. The festival will be from two sides. I think that easily I can give something to them only if they will follow me and if they will try to follow me. The first thing is that. I must say to everyone that this will be very good for all the practitioners. bhaja durjana sunsargum bhaja...

First it is necessary to remove the obstacles from the path of the devotion. The obstacle is asat sanga, bad association. Bad association, how much it can do wrong we cannot conceive. In my life I once tried to avoid a bad associate, but after so long of a time that came to me and again pushed me to that previous some thought. I can say here about Sri Chaitanya Mahaprabhu's disappearance. He (the bad associate) got an idea from a different type of thinker and he wanted to inject in my brain that thinking, but I am not ready to get it because I read almost all scriptures, you can say, and nowhere is it mentioned about Mahaprabhu’s disappearance pastimes. Then why are you curious? Not Srila Rupa Goswami, Srila Sanatana Goswami, Krishna dasa Kaviraja Goswami, Vrindaban Dasa Thakur, Gadadhara Pandit, Nityananda Prabhu, Murari Gupta, no one gave any trace. Then why shall I be curious for that? It is not mentioned anywhere. But educated minds are always searching some nonsense thing and they are trying to research this matter.

When Krishna disappeared His body went directly to Goloka. Everyone had seen that, but still there one can do some ceremony with that body. This is like that. But it’s also a miracle in front of all of the devotees of Chaitanya Mahaprabhu's Society. There is no trace of Nityananda Prabhu's Disappearance Lila. No trace of Advaita Prabhu's. No trace of Mahaprabhu's. And it is not so far, only 500 hundred years ago. At that time also the Muslim government was here. After that many governments changed and the people also changed. But no one can trace this matter. And what is the cause? Because they do not want to do that. Nowhere any evidence we have seen. We can get something through that. Some book I read a long time ago, there was given some idea and Prabhupada Srila Bhaktisiddhanta Saraswati Thakur, he also accepted that. Mahaprabhu's disappearance happened, that pastime, He merged into the Gopinatha of Gadadhara Pandit, Tota Gopinath. We already accepted that thing, and we are not thinking too much about that.

What I want to say today is, association always will push us to go to the hellish position or to go to the transcendental abode of the Lord. One is up and another is down. The bad association always will try to take us to the hellish world. Who is the practitioner of Krsna Consciousness not to search so much. That’s also harmful for them. Because how much they can get? It is infinite and inconceivable. Mahaprabhu said: achintya bedabeda ... Where will come some strong question, there we will put some cover. "Not necessary this."

Sometimes I’m saying to my friends: "If you are really in the line of Krishna consciousness the results will come to you, you are not to go to Krishna." This is Krishna consciousness. It is not necessary to search for Krishna. Our Guru Maharaj’s first book in English is The Search for Shri Krishna. But that is for the primary section, for primary students. But actually when you are a proper practitioner under guidance of Radharani and the Sakhis, you must get that position (of seeing Krishna) in the future. You wait until that time and do your service with chastity and sincerity. You will see that Krishna will be eager to search for you. It will not then be necessary to search for Shri Krishna. Krishna will search for you.

The Loving Search for the Lost Servant, this is the target of our Sampradaya. That we have got from Srila Guru Maharaj and Srila Rupa Goswami Prabhu. Sanatan Goswami Prabhu does not want to see. First he wants to know what is shown in Brihad Bhagavatamrita. But lastly he does not want to see the Pastimes of Krishna, because it is not necessary. It will appear, automatically it will appear. Why should I try to develop it in my mental laboratory? Mental laboratory. It is not necessary to try to discover it in that way. You keep your sincerity and chastity to your Gurudev and if Guru is perfect you have no fear and no worry to get that brilliant life, that exalted transcendental service life.

Krishna will take you. He will search for you and will give His Divine service. But you must be steady under guidance of your Gurudev, who’s position finally goes up to Radharani's service. This is the super gift of Chaitanya Mahaprabhu as well as Rupa Goswami Prabhu and our Guru Maharaj has also given this thought to us. Not only it is thought, it is conception, it is life, and it is life's goal.

Navidwip Dham
December 22, 1999
Transcribed by Vaishnavi Devi Dasi